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“I am interested in how you are able to fit the uncontestable fact of suffering into your understanding of the world and how you hope to navigate through life in spite of it.”

— Dr. Hyde aka Old Man, 122 days after, Looking for Alaska by John Green (via stabilowounds)

“She wasn’t bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time.”

— Charlie from The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

Somebody that I used to know - Gotye ft. Kimbra

Kimbra: Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
And I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on
somebody that you used to know…

Gotye: But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know…

This song just makes me really sad. I wish there was a better reason for when people separate ways and consciously drift apart other than its part of life.   

The Invitation.

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon…
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

Questions in my head.

How does it feel to leave knowing people are not sad to see you go?

Why can’t you make up your mind?

Why do the ones we trust screw us over?

How can you enjoy the holidays with food and gifts bought from money you’ve stolen?

Why do bad things happen and bad people exist?

What are you praying for this Christmas?

Evil - 2, Me - 0.

I spent almost the entire day at the police station. The investigators came over to ask the guard a number of questions. He was trembling, stuttering with his answers. It felt like a scene straight from Dostoyevsky’s Crime and Punishment.

Relief.

We submitted the report for the first component today and Asec Bong agreed for the exams to be moved next year.

“No matter how well you play, at some point you’re going to find yourself stuck in the waters, the roughs or the bunker and you’ll have no choice but still take the shot cos that’s how the game works.”

— Golf/ Life lessons from Daddy yo!

Photo apps with the kids! (: